What are you looking forward to? Have you ever made a list? Each and every day wake up and remember who and where you are. Yes, you'll have priorities that you have no control over, of course. But, try to remember what you were dreaming. Where does your heart dwell, when it is happy? When you are busily taking care of your daily activities, to what thing does your mind continually wander when it wants to "play." Your subconscious is a child. Sometimes your thoughts will cause a pang of regret that pains the heart. Sometimes the mention of the name of someone who has hurt you can suddenly crush your heart and it feels like a literal stabbing that goes through all the way to your back. Maybe you'll not even remember what was said or what happened that made you feel that way. Maybe it was cumulative...that this person did so many little offenses that finally one was the last straw that broke the camel's back. It's unclear to you now, but you just remember how it felt. Maybe it was your fault, and that hurts even more. There is a time and a place for forgiveness and healing. A time to confront the problem, a time to confess and ask forgiveness and for a reconciliation. But right now, the child inside your heart begs the adult inside you to take the problem that is too overwhelming and put it inside a box and give it to Jesus to handle. Jesus is much taller than the child, so it is impossible for the child to look up and see the contents of the box, but the child can see that Jesus is holding the box without difficulty. You will tell Jesus you are sorry you can't fix it. Then He will wipe away your tears and give you a hug, and you will be free to run outside and play in the sunshine.//
